the hardest thing is to know that you leave because you want to, not because you need to while after all this years i always believe that we were fighting for each other.

Stupid.

Saya tau saya banyak kurangnya. Banyak batasannya. Tidak bisa ini itu kesini kesitu. Tidak menyenangkan. Cenderung membosankan.

Mungkin itu juga yang kadang membuat saya terpuruk ketika kamu memilih bersenang-senang dengan orang lain untuk hal yang di luar batas saya.

Saya tau kamu baik.

Saya yang serba kurang.

Maaf ya.

:)

When you're really love someone, you'll be at a point when you feel ready to risk all you have only to be with him. because one thing that you're sure is losing them would never be harder than losing him.

and when you're really love someone, you'll be at a point when you feel his happiness aren't less important than yours. That's why you take him in the first place for every matters.

then when you're really love someone, somehow you'll be at a point when you feel that you'll never be able to hate him no matter how sucks he behave.

Even when he decide to leave.

Because when you're REALLY love someone,
You are simply love him, not the way he loves you.





(when you're really love someone, you become silly, stupid, and powerless)

It's like a game rules. You always has a choice to run from enemy and play save, or face it and take damage then level up.

Yes. You need to take damage in order to level up. You just need to think how to decrease damage.

Said your enemy defense, you should attack. But when it use power attack, you better defense.

Sometimes you need to defense to make less damage.

Thus, i though life is realy like a game except the fact that God doesnt play with dice. So why so serious? =)

Sincere, the stupid me.

It's true. Being stupid is painful. When you should depend on many people to keep you alive while knowing they are tired enough to keep attempt everything for you.

Thus, my friend, i apologize for all of my stupidity. I do realy wish that i could fix it. Just throw my rummy brain then change it to a shiny one. But we know that it sound impossible, and stupid. hehe.

So i thought i should unsocialized myself from you, my friend, while giving you space to be surrounded by another human being who as smart as you.

Good luck, my friend. Be ready for being happier. yeay! :)

Dan saya masih setia mengidam-idamkan hidup yang indah dengan sederhana. Yang di dalamnya tidak banyak tuntutan, dan perbandingan. minim aturan. Yang cukup menjadikan senang hanya dengan berhasil menyenangkan. Karena sungguh saya dibesarkan dengan luar biasa banyak aturan yang memuakkan, dan oleh karenanya saya bercita-cita untuk hidup sederhana.

Tidak banyak tuntutan, dan perbandingan. Minim aturan.

itu suatu malam di bulan oktober, sebuah panggilan telepon dengan percakan sederhana tanpa arah, seperti biasa. tidak tahu bagaimana, kita mulai mengangan-angankan masa depan.

dan kita menyebut tahun, jumlah, bahkan jenis pabrik yang sama :
2016, 3, amoniak-amoniak-urea :)

mudah-mudahan kamu ingat, dan kembali sepakat

Sesakit dan melelahkannya bertahan, tidak akan lebih buruk dari kehilangan.
Semangat ya, Saya :)